I suppose I have to describe my scale here. The way I do this is: anything above a 4 I would pay money to see again. 10 is the most astounding, life altering, history re-writing movie I've ever seen. Make sense? ok.
It's really interesting, the sensation you get when you realize the people that you always hated for being the "cool" kids are just as nerdy, if not more, than you. I mean, today when emily & natalie couldn't speak in entire scentences and were telling each other they should use the punk names "artic shatter" and "jagged ice," and walking in the direct oposite direction of our destination--an office building downtown--when we parked across the street. It just makes you think.
I personally think it must suck to be them, but whatever.
And now I just found out I got a part or two in the school play. Right on. I'm dramatic again. Shit.
I went to the bay last night with scott, that was really fun. We watched american beauty, which is getting better every time I see it. Afterwards, Ali at spot's said my money was no good there, which was excellent becos, well, i had no money. I had spent it earlier at spots.
then we went to the peter dorm and peter was there! So I was happy cos I saw him. I watched three boys try to figure out how to put wires in a stereo. Then I went home.
That was my yesterday.
My life has kind of been in mono hasn't it? Well, I'll try to give the stereo version as much as possible.
I can't wait to start reading A Clockwork Orange.
Tuesday, October 3, 2000 11:17 p.m.
Ok. I saw a good film. Andy came to school today which was really bizarre. I found out 2 lunch policy goes into effect monday at lunch. I went to the mirror. I went to peter's dorm but peter wasn't there. I talked to peter anyway, and told peter to tell peter that I was mad. Peter was at some socialist party meeting thing. Oh well. I have to go to bed now cos I want to get up at 6:30ish tomorrow. yikes.
Monday, October 2, 2000 11:45 p.m.
Merits to a bad movie:
Chase scenes. Boys dueling with guns they don't know how to use. You don't have to turn on /hot/ water to tamper with bugs in your house. Live by the rules. Die by the rules.
That movie was so predidictable. It was exactly what I wanted.
Monday, October 2, 2000 12:28 p.m.
OK, so, there's this thing called school. When there are due dates for assignments, you generally spend at least the day before working on your project/essay/worksheet/whatever. Right? Well, obviously not in the AP ballard high school classes! Jesus Christ.
We were supposed to have an essay re-write done by today. I got barely a C on my last one, so I honestly spent close to 3 hours working on completely re-writing it, with a new focused thesis and stronger support. I basically removed the entire center of the paper and started over.
So I get to class today, and /no one/ has re written their papers. Most have gotten worse grades than I, and still, they don't seem to care. What the hell? What the hell? I'm very frustrated right now.
I've been so running around lately. The Junior State Runs my life, even more than talisman. I didn't understand how much being on cabinet would take from me. I love it, but it's a lot of work.
I am taking the afternoon off today, however, to see if a small thing in my bathroom called a darkroom will work out. If it does, boy oh boy will you know about it.
I also love it when the most fake people at my school immediately call someone who did something innocent a "bitch." It's especially stupid when they /know/ I'm her friend and I'm sitting RIGHT next to them. That's a really smooth move. All she did was pick an author for goodness sakes. That does not make her a bad person.
I'm not bitter.
Oh, and new Dan guy from work is kind of scary. He randomly called me last night to chat. I found it... interesting. Oh well. That's life, as the french say.
Sunday, October 1, 2000 11:38 p.m.
Today was so nice. I slept, I sat, I ate, I rested, I hung out, I wore pjs for longer than 7 hours. Ahhhhh.... weekends. The first one I've had in awhile. :) toodaloo.
Saturday, September 30, 2000 05:45 p.m.
and then, and /then/ to top it all off, my body decides to take advantage of me not being by a store or any way to change what is happening for 8 hours by beggining my monthly miracle in the middle of downtown seattle. Thank God JSA is a participation encouraged not required kind of thing.
Life sucks.
Wednesday, September 27, 2000 10:31 p.m.
I just wanted to say that I feel this much better because I spent a little investment of time (about an hour) and money ($200 even) TO GET A DARKROOM OF MY OWN.
That's right, by bathroom not ten feet away now has a lovely 3' tall enlarger, stand, frames, a timer, 3 safe lights, chemicals, paper, squeegee, focousers, tubs & whatnot!
I am so excited. Ro & I spent the majority of the evening squealing.
Tomorrow: set up day.
Wednesday, September 27, 2000 04:57 p.m.
Everything in my life has been making me feel like shit lately. I don't feel comfortable with anyone but 3 people. I hate school more than anything and it stresses me out. I don't like the way people act there, especially me. I'm so fake. But I'm fake all the time; i've come to that conclusion now. I'm completely artificial.
I hate myself so much these days it's almost unbearable. I don't know if I can change or what but something has to happen because I think I might go insane. I don't know if it's that something has to give or there's something I have to take but I--I don't know. I don't know what it is.
I can't help it.
Monday, September 25, 2000 08:46 p.m.
Rosie tells me not to stress out but I do anyway. I can't help it. I can't really do anything now, I'm just going to go watch another movie.
