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Saturday, March 18, 2000 12:05 a.m. Ok. Today I learned all about why I should become a major techie just like I already thought. But when rich people some to talk to us about how great it is it's much more of an incentive than just being like, "ok... yeah, maybe...". This is more like, "YEEEEAAAH! WOOHOO!" So my dad bought me html for dummies as a present. I love my family. We also had a really good conversation in History about legalizing drugs/lowering the drinking age and educating kids about consequences. Not setting double standards. It was hella (pardon the pun) dope. Then the paper came out. It turned out pretty well, after all the sweat and tears. Yay Talisman. After school, I got coffee, came home, watched tv, got online, read andreas' really nice entry about *me,* wrote a resume (rough draft), talked to andreas & britain, and signed off. Then I ate corn(ed?) beef and cabbage. I did the layout ofor five pages in my zine. I listened to the beatles and bob dylan and I remembered that there's a fiona apple concert tomorrow. Anybody want to go? My mom's friend came over and I had to be their baristas. We all talked, and then I came back downstairs and got online. And then I went to bed. Thursday, March 16, 2000 11:29 p.m. Today was a long day. Stress, craziness, angryness, happiness and excitement all in one day. Wow. Ok so today was like, school, and we like, finished the paper. Whew. Glad that's over. I found out that I was the only one in my history class (including my teacher) that under stood the speaker. It's funny because I thought all the ideas were simple and my teacher was like, "I don't really understand him because he expects us all to be rocket scientests." Well, aren't we? I know I am. Then Sarah invited me to Andreas' suprise birthday party, which I didn't even know about but I said of course I'll go. We had a few tense moments with Heidi in her car (for good reason), but the h-miester dropped us off at my house and we turned around to go to F-meyer's and also to Archie McPhees. I got andreas a punching nun, and various other "religious" Items. And an audrey hepburn postcard. Then we went to Sarah's house to eat and get ready, and then we jetted to Kristi's house. Andreas either can act really well or was genuinely suprised that it was a birthday party for him, and he said it was the second one he had ever had. He got all kinds of pressents, cake, the works. It was fun. We lost at Trivial Pursuit. It was trivial, so it was ok. Then I gave Andreas and Sarah a ride home. Date Rape was on. It was all good. Ok. here's the deal. There are two people that are really bothering me lately: 1) This person insists upon being right at all times. In fact, they make things up to make themselves seem smarter. It frustrates me. The person seems borderline rascist, makes stupid comments and then thinks their intellegently superior to others. And then... whine whine whine whine whine whine whine. They whine ALL the time! If you don't like your classes, DONT TAKE THEM. If you don't want to do your homework *that much* DONT DO IT. Don't whine to me. There's nothing I can do. Sorry. Deal. Another person is evil. They lie to their best friends and think it's all fun & games. They abuse their friends because they know that they can. It's horrible. I can't stand it. This person should really consider what they say before they move or breathe. Hey, maybe then they would stop breathing. Here's my advice. Don't trust people. Either be willing to be totally public and be unafraid of shmack talk, or stay away from everyone! The people you trust most, those are the most cruel. Don't hurt yourself. Please. Wednesday, March 15, 2000 11:47 p.m. bleargh. I have to make this quick cos it's almost midnight and I need my beauty sleep since I shall be quite stressed out tomorrow. Ok. Today. And yesterday too since my dad so kindly kicked me off the intronet before I could so much as sign into the cgi-bin @ pitas. Oh well. How many of you know what the cgi-bin is? I honestly cannot remember yesterday all to well. Ah yes. I had a conversation with Andreas in his MicroAps class while I designed an ad for Talisman, I worked late after school and... Ah yes! I remember now. My magical moment yesterday was when we were leaving talisman to get to Heidi's car, and it was pouring down rain out. But we hadn't noticed too much. We stepped out side, and I asked of Heidi, "How fast should we run?" She took off, yelling, "FAST!!" And we (Sarah, Kevin & I) spent the next block and a half chasing after her. It was like a moment of perfection, one that you hope you never forget even tho it was so simple. It was too much fun though. Today was a day as well. I worked on Talisman like crazy, talked about I-695 being unconstitutional, littering, and coffee obsessions within 6 minutes of each other. I couldn't possibly finish my page today, I had to leave it to Ngan and while I was a bit worried I'm pretty sure everything that needed to got done. I'm praying anyway. After school I had to tutor. I wish kids were not so spoiled. I just want to say to them, "STOP BEING VIOLENT. There is enough real violence in this world already. DON'T ENCOURAGE IT. you'll die soon enough" Of course I wont say this to some six year old's face, but it's very frustrating when they want to play, "super warrior ninja runs accross the room and throws chairs at girls" when I want to teach them how to say "Comment t'appelles tu?" Ergh. It's annoying. There was another issue today in the traumatic world of tutoring. There was a girl there, Anna, who looked when she came in like she hadn't slept in 3 days. She was very upset and grumpy, and when we split up into groups (this is when psycho ninjas were around & screaming) she started to cry. I don't know the kids very well so I asked Evan to talk with her. She took her out in the hall and told me that she had just said that Anna didn't like the screaming and the noise and she just wanted to be by herself. I thought maybe something bad had happened to her at school that day, but my mind also jumps to horrible conclusions--like, "what if she was molested and didn't tell anybody? Beaten?" It got me all freaked out. Then her mom came to get her, saw that she looked sad, and said, "Anna. You have a sad face. You know that you just waste everyone's time when you have a sad face?" and i was like (in my head, of course), "WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?? THIS LITTLE GIRL LOOKS LIKE SHE IS IMMENSLY HURT! AND YOU TELL HER SHE'S WASTING *MY* TIME? SHE MEANS A LOT MORE TO ME THAN TO YOU, LADY." I get easily angered. Then I came home... went to see really awesome speaker. I'll talk more tomorrow, it's 12:15 anne needs to sleep. I really went off on that anna tangent. Monday, March 13, 2000 11:06 p.m. Je ne sais pas a quoi de faire maittennent. I'm: happy. frustrated. sad. excited. stressed. tired. hating kiss 106.1. the rest. People are full of shit. Just, you know, in general. They suck majorly. One is particualar makes things up just top get attention all the time. Every day. They know it. They know what they're doing. And I know that they don't like their little habit either because as soon as someone figures it out person x just shuns them away. It's shit. Poop. excrement. Other than that I'm just fine. I did homework today. I missed first period (oops), went to the rest of my classes. Talisman is stressing me out as usual. Oh well. All because of a sillie tennis article. I came home and worked on my paper both for talisman, and for LA (it's due tomorrow). I have to finish Zinn now but... eh. I want a break. I want fresh air and smiles. I want to be in a quiet place happily discussing life's little quirks. I don't want to listen to shit. I don't want to not understand the chemistry, yet not have the time or energy to learn about it. I don't want to wish for the future, but it seems like I do all too often. I have to put my Audrey Hepburn Poster up. I was thinking of andreas when I watched rocky on saturday, wondering if he was watching the whole thing. I'm glad he did. It'a fantabulous movie, if you haven't seen it, GO RENT IT NOW. er, NOW!!! rather Sunday, March 12, 2000 10:58 p.m. Hi. I'm mad. No I'm actually sad because when I get mad I get sad. I don't like being lied about or lies in general. They are NO GOOD. They hurt they cut they sting. With lemon juice in it. I don't want to cry right now because I know where I stand is the ground backed by common sense. Oh wait no nevermind it's not... whatever. I'm not changing my mind. But I'm hurt because she still doesn't get it. I'm trying not to be upset and not to be sick feeling and wanting to throw up. It's 11 o clock on a school night. I'm being kind of random. My day. I went to the park with anna and drank coffee on the swings. It was really fun. Then we came home and watched a movie and it was pretty good. Then my mom & I went to gamma's and played monopoly and then I came home and heard bad news about people. That made me sad. And mad. And grrr. And the last thing I want to do is go school and pretend nothing's wrong. |