I suppose I have to describe my scale here. The way I do this is: anything above a 4 I would pay money to see again. 10 is the most astounding, life altering, history re-writing movie I've ever seen. Make sense? ok.
My birthdy is over, but I'll leave up this hint-hint site . Cos, you can tell what a person likes by their music. Let me tell you. :) And I bought David Gray, I just don't feel like rewriting the html for one cd. yeah dawg.
Saturday, February 24, 2001 02:39 a.m.
I feel like ass.
Friday, February 23, 2001 04:14 p.m.
My week has just been off. Maybe since the convention or something, but I've just felt weird. I've been feeling like since I'm on break, I'm obligated to see people and go out and do things that I don't necissarily want to do. ALL WEEK. I'm spending my days quietly thinking about the person I have to call when I get home or dazed about my plans for the evening that are shaky and I have to realize. I kind of would like to just sleep, and not feel guilty that I'm turning anyone down for anything.
My parents were kind of making fun of me, saying "don't you remember when you used to mope around the house, being so upset becos you had no friends? And now, when we never see you, you're moping about being too busy? Huh."
It's hard to explain. But whatever.
I don't even remember what I did this week.
Wednesday, February 21, 2001 12:45 a.m.
Oh yeah and I'll update my movie thing I swear, just I'm having a bad time with being near a computer these days. I'm weird. I know.
Wednesday, February 21, 2001 12:42 a.m.
Hey yo wassup. Today felt like an almost useless yet at the same time semi fun day. At least I saw a lot of people. I just didn't feel as thought I did much. That's all. I am broke as a joke. Sad to say. I've been spending way too much money. And now I'm coming to the sick realization that I have tons of homework to do over break.
Sigh.
I got my senior portraits back today.
Um, yeah.
Sleep now.
Tuesday, February 20, 2001 01:26 a.m.
Whew. So I've slept and gotten back into the 3 cups of coffee a day habit. Thank god. I think I was about to die. Normal people do not sleep for 21 hours with no problems. I didn't even get up to pee!
I saw traffic today with scott and that was really good. Then I went to spots, went to michael's for a bit, went back to spots, went to my house, went driving, went to bauhaus and hung out on capitol hill for awhile. What a day, what a day.
Tomorrow I have lunch plans already. I love being a scape goat.
I had a really weird weekend. I almost had a really good time, but at the same time I didn't. It's hard for me to explain, and I don't necissarily understand it myself. I just know it's true and that's all I can say for now, really.
Thursday, February 15, 2001 06:33 p.m.
<☻andreas☻> welcome
[☻Disguise☻] hi
[☻Disguise☻] what's up?
<☻andreas☻> not much
[☻Disguise☻] this is the first time i've been able to "get online" in three days
<☻andreas☻> looking for good American Psycho pics to use for wallpapers
<☻andreas☻> so we've noticed
* ☻Disguise☻ still feels ultra crappy and needs sleep
[☻Disguise☻] but how are you?
[☻Disguise☻] how have you been?
<☻andreas☻> i'm alright
<☻andreas☻> you?
<☻andreas☻> aside from crappy and tired?
[☻Disguise☻] oy. don't get me started. actualy, in general, not this week inclusive, actually not the last 2 days inclusive, relatively well with a few exceptions
So yeah. I'm fucking tired and can't talk about anything.
Thursday, February 8, 2001 10:09 p.m.
well I'm going to idaho starting tomorrow. So I don't know what to say, except that I'm poor and upset and yeah. I hope my parents give me more money. That's all. I'm done now.
Ps. boys suck.
pps. except scott, cos he made me a cool cd.
Wednesday, February 7, 2001 10:55 p.m.
Fucking computers.
Fucking printers.
Fucking ... people.
I want to listen to two more mp3s (texas-say what you want & pj & tom-This mess we're in). But I have no reason to be online &/or on the computer.
Fuck.
Fucking vomit.
Tuesday, February 6, 2001 05:36 p.m.
I don't know what to say, but here I am talking again. I worked on my zine a whole bunch, and developed 2 more rolls of film.
I think maybe I used all my creative juices.
I wore my jammies to school today. I want to do that every day. Especially now that I have my scarves, because my jammies make an outfit. I just need some moccasins/black slippers. Right now I wear leather shoes, and that doesn't really work.
I made a tape for photography class tomorrow. I have THE SHIT for film. I have 5 rolls to work off of now. And one more to develop. Hmm.
brooks institute called me today to tell me to go to their school.
Sunday, February 4, 2001 11:24 p.m.
It's the most special thing in the world when I am at a public place, wearing scrubby clothing, feeling gross and unclean, and noticing a cute boy is staring at me. And not like, in a disturbed and/or repulsed way. It makes me feel a /lot/ better about myself.
Can I go back to bauhaus tomorrow night?
So, I spent more than 4 hours on capitol hill today. With tyler. We went up there to take pictures of shadows, but since the Seattle weather decided to be helpful, I did not take pictures of shadows. I took TONS of pictures of reflections. I have been completely digging reflections lately.
We went to dilletantes in an attempt to buy my grandma a cheesecake but it didn't work out. Then we almost thought tyler's car was going to die, but it didn't. Yay.
I went out to dinner to celebrate my gramma's 84th birthday, and then I came home with one of my mom's friends because laura paged me, and I wanted to be home before ten, and I didn't want to be there when I gave my gramma her present. So I came home and Laura told me her life story at Bauhaus (where the cute boy was). Then Tyler showed up with his friend rochelle, and we had a little coffee party or somesuch.
Then I came home and wrote an essay. The end. I'm going to go to sleep now. Good night.
Saturday, February 3, 2001 06:16 p.m.
I feel like total shit right now. I don't know what's wrong with me. Flu-ey stuff. My brain feels all melted. I have a photography assignment that I have to do. Shadows. Is it going to be clear tomorrow? I hope so. Sigh. That's my story. I'm done now.
Saturday, February 3, 2001 03:45 a.m.
I am exhausted. It's been a long day. I went to school, all that jazz, blegh. The paper came out & looked ... ok. I wish it had been different, but oh well. Emily was sick today so it was weid, cos she didn't yell at everyone.
I went to rehersal after school, which was pretty fun. Then we attempted to backstreet boys, but it didn't work it out. Like, until 6 oclock. So we ended up at Wendy's instead. Then, Anna & I sat around at my house until 9. Then we drove to alki, had pizza at Tyler's work, then drove back to beth's and sat there for almost two hours. Then we went to uvillage and people stole a keg while tyler & I bystood innocently. The night was quickly made by mistakenly following scott down an alley, and then going to see the finished product in the problem cluster. The end.
Tuesday, January 30, 2001 10:13 p.m.
Mmmmphhhhtttt. I came home and did nothing, that was not the best thing in the world. But. I needed the sleep. For some reason I'm absolutely exhausted. I understand mono is spreading around school, and that sounds like an exciting possibility.
I've been listening to madison avenue quite a bit lately, mixed in with bob , and david. I'm so weird. I just found out that he's coming in may tho!! Yay!
....
Ok, the jumping around has stopped.
I really need to sleep. Absolutely nothing has been going on in my life. People are getting defensive about what they do. Mff. I hate school a wholefuckinglot. But that's ok. I'm almost done. Blegh.
Monday, January 29, 2001 11:52 p.m.
time have none. Good day until I got home and knew I shouldn't have come home when did. me to be sucks. Oh well instand karma's gonna get you. That's what they say. Bye.
Monday, January 29, 2001 01:17 a.m.
I don't really have that much to say. I got up at 4:30, had breakfast, went shopping, had dinner. After dinner I tried to get ahold of laura or scott but after attempting to call scott I broke a mug I've had longer than I can remember and I got really upset. But then tyler called me!
Tyler got a little freaked out when he couldn't find a texaco when we were low on gas. But it was ok.
I can't explain my love for passengering. I just, enjoy it more than anything. Tonight it was raining, a lot, so it was kind of scary, but I still had a good time and lake washington was still gorgeous. I felt like I was a year younger, like nothing had changed. It was kind of funny, because there have been so many changes in my life.
I hate those crushes you get when you like someone but you know nothing will ever happen with them. It pisses me off. I feel like it's a waste of my thought space. I'd rather not be thinking about them, but what can I say. That's what I get I suppose for meeting people. heh. I spent a lot of my trip thinking about a silly boy! Ugh!
Yeah and that's about it. I'm going to write some ziney stuff now. ta ta.
Sunday, January 28, 2001 04:09 a.m.
Today has been such a long day but it's been such a great one that I have to attempt to scribble it all down before I fall into an unconcious heap at my desk.
I got up at 6 yesterday morning to drive my dad to bellevue, then drove back to seattle to pick up graham. It was 8:00 by then but he wasn't awake. Oops. So I went to my house, called Nikki, picked her up, got coffee. Then we got graham.
When we drove down to Tacoma, C89 was playing the top 30 of 2000 and it was REALLY GOOD. So amongst the nervous anne-driving-on-the-freeway-for-the-sixth-time-everness I was also rocking out to britney, madonna, or silly house music.
Got to convention. Saw cool people. David was sorry about my birthday, and him & mike made jokes about having a suprise party for me. Um, yeah. Laura & I went to her house for lunch. That was really nice.
The con was ok, but I got bored after about the 3rd block. It was just "leader sumthin blahblahblah". Hopefully the in school con, if we get it together, will be tight becos we wont have time to get bored.
Um, we talked campaign stuff but not a lot. Laura Seago LTG!! Yay!!
done now.
Then I came home, and since it was my intention to go to a movie I invited my car load, which was graham, nikki, and sara from garfield. By the time we got to my house, it was a bit upsetting cos we had to almost get a move on. The phone was ringing off the hook, I was calling people left and right, and I was trying to entertain. It worked out ok though.
we went to spots and showed sara the ballard ropes, like, yes you cross the main arterial of downtown ballard for free bread. I mean, it's FREE BREAD!! We chilled at the chaihouse until scotty showed up, then we made the elaborate trip from my house to freemont and back again, in different cars. On the way back, tyler called and wanted to hang out. So /he/ came over. Then Anna & Maddy showed up, the two girls who instigated the whole movie thing.
We went to Broadway and got a little bit lost, but that's ok. (I ask: how do you get lost on Broadway?)
The movie was awesome, and entertaining and fun. Everyone seemed to enjoy it, minus sara being a little puturbed by the bovine mass-murder. I felt really bad about that.
After the movie we stood outside the theatre for awhile before we came to the astute decision that maybe the kids with curfews should be getting home. Graham got a little mad cos his time limit was later than usual, and he didn't want to "waste it" on people, but otherwise he would have "wasted" it anyway becos he would have had to wait for other people to get back from driving home the curfew kids.
We decided upon beth's, simple and easy. The fog was completely gorgeous going across the aroura bridge. It was soft and quiet, an interesting contrast to the bumpin' tyler & I were doing, but it was nice. Very.
At beth's, everyone had a great time. The staff came out and sang me happy birthday and gave me cake. We told stories. I felt like this group of adults sitting around telling their war stories kind of, but it was really entertaining. And now I know why those stories are so fun.
Then Tyler went home, anna drove to my house, we got scott's car and hopped back to the U. Maddy met the college boys and we hung out for a bit, but she had to get home so we split.
Then scott dropped me off, and hopefully he went home.
I was just so happy because everyone got along so very well tonight, and everyone seemed so genuinely happy. They did their own thing, it was eight extreemely happy people meeting new people, saying new things.
