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Monday, May 29, 2000 10:43 p.m. It's really incedental that I wrote about how I hadn't seen any movies where people fell In love and then died, because on saturday I watched West Side Story. It was foreshadowing, in my life... ohh... I did a whole honking lot this weekend. And I'm glad. So. Saturday i woke up around 2:30 and left the house around 3 to get peter & andreas, who went with me to spots, but andy had to leave by 4 to go watch his hockey game, so peter & I borrowed West Side Story and we pondered over Harriet's name (er, *maria*, i think...). I had dinner with my parents and then I went to Michael's house to watch interview with a vampire, which is a good movie (THE BEST MOVIE EVER--for michael) via mr. spot's with anna & erin. Then we went to Dick's at 2 in the morning, and I got yelled at for pulling out my journal to write haiku. Hmm. I'll try to only do it in school. Then we went home. Wow. Sunday, it was somewhat the same deal of me waking up and the plans being, let's go. I've never taken a shower so fast in my life. I got in scott's honda (NOT as cool as the battlewagon... by far) and we picked up andreas and drove to folklife. Folklife was of course the thrill i expected which means to say not a thrill at all, though I was with good company. I went home at 5:30 with scott and then decided to go out again to a 9:00 film fest movie, called The Woman Chaser which I found to be entertaining and gorgeous. The cinamatography was excellent. Every shot was a picture that could be printed and put in a museum... I don't think peter and andreas liked it as much as I, because they weren't looking at it the same way. I was jealous of it. Heh. Then we went to B&O, and I got my cheesecake again, and lived it up and got a vanilla latte too. We talked and talked and talked some more. Then we drove to salmon bay and swung and talked about weather and boulder. Then we went to greenlake. And to Sunset Hill... the bluff. We spent hours there. Then we went to Peter's and stayed until dawn... which was bad because we had expected to move on to another place... I don't know. I think I might not have liked to go to the Prom party after all the philosophical discussion. All the giggling and shmack talking. It would have given me a headache. But it possibly would have been fun. Anyway. I came in through the back door around 5, and went to sleep in my bed while listening to my darling white album (and no it's not really mine). I woke up to Laura's smiling face next to me. "Anne! It's 1:30, time for breakfast!" That girl... she's odd. So she took me out to breakfast which quickly turned into lunch but it was ok. Then scott paged me and wanted to do something. (and now that I think about it... that's really fucking odd... scott wanted to do something!)Anyway, we got him and then drove to graham's house for fruit snacks, (hmm where are those) and left to return to my house so I could change and not seem so scrubby. Also Graham gave me my new belt! Yay! except now I owe him money. hmm. We got back in the car and drove randomly down to Freemont then U-District and Greenlake. Laura and I heard all about prom. Yay... Then I had to go home and go out to mormor's. And now I have to get off the computer. New design tomorrow kids. Lookout. Saturday, May 27, 2000 01:12 a.m. A long winded entry, is that what you ask for darling? I really don't know what I'm doing. I've just been writing endless haiku to distract myself from nothingness. I wrote 300 lines today. You can look for them to the right. I went with anna to B&O and we had amazing cheescake and talked in either 5 or 7 syllables. We spent time talking about this and that. We tried to steal a construction sign, but it wouldn't fit it my car. So I got a little apathetic about it. I said next time we could bring a saw however. Then we went swinging. We went to salmon bay and I watched the sky and sang a little. There were clouds but the stars were out too. The sky had a warm glow to it. It really felt like summer, like the sky was giving me a hug. We talked about life's little qualms, how it's always going to royally suck, no matter how happy you are on occasion, and uh... stuff like that. After Anna got out of the car some song came on and I almost started crying. I don't know why. I haven't cried in a long time, and I feel akward with myself about it. I used to bawl all the time. I haven't even cried at movies lately. Well nobody has fallen in love and then died in any movies I've seen lately, either. hmm. it was an interesting experience. Especially since I had shady reasoning. Maybe I'm just tired. Friday, May 26, 2000 08:40 p.m. We're going up to b&o. Scott and Michael are being LAME ASS. They need to page me when they're bored or I might randomly show up at their houses. if *you* want to chill, page me at 540-8673. I'm bringing my pager. And Andreas, way to go with the sleeping.... I want my white album. Thursday, May 25, 2000 11:16 a.m. "who knows how long I've loved you/you know I love you still/will I wait a lonely lifetime/if you want me to, I will..." That's a dreamy song. I have 3 minutes. I can't say much. I really need to set the clock on this computer. But anyway. I don't know what to say at all. Again it is far too beautiful to be at school. Grrr. Maybe I'll miss a class and go swinging. Hmm... temptation. Orion is bitching at me for typing. Sheesh. I'm trying to do something educationally worthwhile, somewhat. He's concentrationg on shuffling his cards. I'm not bitter. No... Wednesday, May 24, 2000 05:47 p.m. "climb high-- to the highest rung and shake fists at the sky..." I think i could hear that line all day long and be content. It's hilarious. I can see myself doing it too... Hee hee. I feel really bad because I've been writing a lot lately, just nothing of significance or import or anything. Because I don't want to talk about anything of significance or import or anything. It's too much issuesness. So I've been brainless and silly. It was faaaar too nice out for jsa today, so we went to chez richards with graham (anna & I). I took a short nap after school, i really wish I had my car so I could go have coffee but I don't so whatevah. I've got icing for my DC party cake. yay. In a way I'm kind of happy it's our last DC party. Now my wednesdays will be freed up once again. I know we'll have commemorative parties about it. DC is just too depressing. I need to go swinging too. I haven't been since monday. And that's just wrong. Wednesday, May 24, 2000 07:14 a.m. I have to be quick but I can leave it at something like this: today's gonna suck. But then I look out side and think, "The sun is up, the sky is blue, it's beautiful and so are you..." and then I think the day's gonna be crap again cos I have to spend it inside pretending I don't give a crap about the weather. DC party tonight. And I don't think I'll have any homework neither. Yay. Oy. Tuesday, May 23, 2000 04:19 p.m. SCOTT I WENT TO SPOTS. meet me down there. anyone else who wants to come, come please do. Page me if you are. I don't have my car however, we're getting there via friend's dad. so... yeah we're gonna be skrewed later. Oh well. Show up people. party at spots. @nne Tuesday, May 23, 2000 11:38 a.m. It's actually first period sometime but oh well. I find it really entertaining that we are learning about existentialism in class, TODAY. Ha. I wish we could read Camus, but alas, WE DON'T HAVE ANY DAMN COPIES OF THE BOOK. I LOVE public hi school and I want it to be my baby. Darling. Oy, I don't know what to say. It's a very magnolia-esque moment. I really love that Aimee Mann song... what am I doing? I have LA work today... And a chemistry test. I'm really glad I get like this all the time. I'd never get anything done. Or maybe I'd just be more brave. Monday, May 22, 2000 05:18 p.m. Darling. I've been taken to calling things darling lately. I called my cat darling about 80 thousand times today. I love my cat far too much. Well, not as much as anna loves caspian, so I suppose it's ok. :) I'm listening to my baby fiona. She makes me happy. Love ridden baby. God. Along with Ben. I listened to that cd today too. And austin powers, the x files, and cardigans. I'm a musical gal. I miss britney however. I'll pretend. They were playing a cd at spots that sounded astoundingly like aimee mann, but I don't know if it was or not. The guys at spots were totally hitting on graham. heh. What else? I'm supposed to be going to a study group soon with Rosie and Lar and brian and those are all people I haven't talked to really in a loooooooooong time. So it's weird. Ah well. It will be fione. Toodles. Monday, May 22, 2000 8 20 something. I'm really sad all of a sudden. I got in a fight with my mom before school and it just kinda threw me. Sigh. i'm really sick of doing that. I'm sick of my mom yelling at me for not calling laura when I wasn't supposed to afterall or whatever she wanted. I don't even know. She got mad at me when I saw claudia in the parking lot in a brand new cabrio. That's my dream car, my pink moon car, and she starts, "well if you work this summer and make ten thousand dollars then it will be all good..." all a bunch of crap that I didn't want to hear. I was just *saying* that I liked it. It's a *nice* car. I never say the right thing. I'm very tired I went to sleep to late last night and I haven't done any more chemistry. Oh well as the french say that's life and it's been a long hour that i've been awake. It's bad when you have like a thousand mp3s stuck in your head that you cannont listen to... arg. oh well. I want britney back. Monday, May 22, 2000 12:28 a.m. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................... Or something. I was making this post for brandon, who signed, off, so now I really don't know what to do. But I'm here. So hey. I'm really fucked up right now. Except no drugs. All my problemless friends suddenly have iosselektgworeihgieauroh (issues). God dammit I can't type. I HAVE to go to bed. Sunday, May 21, 2000 01:23 p.m. Please don't take that quote in a dirty way. I put that there becos michael and I had a lengthy conversation about events like that that *do* make me feel perfect. Michael is a good guy. Did anyone not hear that yet? (I think he puts something in the miracle water) Anyway. Last night. Good times. Oh wait how about all of yesterday? because it started with a trip to mr. spots, a la battlewagon. Sky cries in the car (we only play the best). Once inside, we discussed lots of things, one of which being timber laws, where I was able to get up and recite off a water bottle the resolution (hee hee). We talked about Zinn and Chomsky and socialism and the SIFF and how Scott & Andreas hadn't seen dead poets society. So I made them see it. And we did. And then Scott took us home. Then I called Sarah who had paged me to ask me for a ride sort of, convinced michael to go to this party at haley's house, and then booked it somewhat to haley's. We'll not mention the part about SCOTT BEING DUMB. We illed it a bit, and then we watched mission impossible... not the best movie, but acceptable because of the tom cruise-ness. I wish we had watched empire records, however, that movie rocks. There are so many movies tho... Anyway, then we stayed up talking until 5 am, when I realized I did have to take the boys home. We went out an the sky was so gorgeous because it had changed to that wonderful predawn glowing indigo. I said, "Ok, we're going swinging." I booked it to Salmon Bay, where we swang, and I sang sillie songs to myself and wondered again if I could just jump and be in the sky. We took michael home, and then I turned on the radio, and P*O*R*C*E*L*A*I*N came on. I almost died from the intense beauty of the moment. Augh.... We dropped off andreas and went back to haley's house and everyone was half-asleep on the living room floor. So we went to sleep right after that. then i woke up at 9. And now I'm home. |
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